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sanity found (I think)

It would seem that seven months is how long it takes for the brain to normalize after quitting smoking. Seven months for me anyway. I've been doing amazingly well in recent weeks. Basically, I feel like me. Totally and completely me — not even a twinge of depression in well over a month and my emotions seem back to normal. That doesn't mean my emotional state is perfectly appropriate at all times because, you know, me has never been entirely well-adjusted. So maybe sanity is too strong a word ;) But it's good. It's comfortable. It's me. Physically I feel great too, by the way.

My use of the snus is on a decline now. I stuck with the every-other-day thing longer than I'd planned. Actually, I stopped even tracking how long I did that. It's less now, though. One day I could just tell I didn't need to reach for it, so I didn't. I'm still holding steady with the e-cig at the same low level of nicotine I've been at for a few months. I thought taxing my fragile little mind while it was so stressed would be a bad idea, so I made no effort to try to reduce that lately. I'm not sure when I will.

I've sort of had a one-year goal in mind to be totally free of nicotine, but the more I've learned about it, the less concerned I am. It's about as harmless as caffeine (just more addictive). What I don't like, though, is relying on a an e-cig all day long. Chinese manufacturing can be very temperamental. And I'm forever carrying around little batteries and little bottles of flavored nicotine liquid. It's annoying, even if it does taste good and smell good and keep me happy.

If those new Nicorette mini lozenges weren't so damn expensive (and they came in some flavor besides extra-gross-and-chalky mint), I'd give them a try. But they're marketed to suckers who are used to paying a fortune for cigarettes because of the massive taxes. Once you factor out the taxes, though, lozenges are no bargain.

Everyone just needs to embrace nicotine so we can all have happy, healthy, brains. Give it maybe ten years and you'll all be using it in one form or another anyway. Yes, the nicotine utopia is coming! :D


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May. 27th, 2010 01:00 pm (UTC)
Yay! When you drop out of sight for long periods, we worry that Dr. Silberman has you locked up somewhere.

I guess the other side of that is Happy People are too busy enjoying life, to write about life or create art?

I mean, seriously, *SIX SECONDS*? ;-)
May. 27th, 2010 04:08 pm (UTC)
\o/ \o/ \o/ !!!

^ That's cheers for you, bb!! <3<3!!!
May. 27th, 2010 10:15 pm (UTC)
I believe that if you were fully sane than I would have to come to the conclusion that you have been replaced by a T-888 and therefore had to die.

So my prognosis is that you keep a little twinge of insanity.

it will keep you alive ;)

PS. Yes, I'm a dork ;P
May. 27th, 2010 11:30 pm (UTC)
I'm proud of you for quitting and sticking to it.

And sanity is overrated, have you seen sane people? They are sooo weird!
May. 28th, 2010 01:45 am (UTC)
May. 28th, 2010 12:40 pm (UTC)
You go girl :-) Hope things continue on the up and up.
May. 30th, 2010 01:04 pm (UTC)
Welcome back. I'm glad you're feeling better.
May. 30th, 2010 05:12 pm (UTC)
Glad to hear that you are doing better and feeling more like yourself.
May. 31st, 2010 12:13 pm (UTC)
Nicotine addiction segment on NPR Morning Edition today

Since your sleep cycle means you probably missed it, check the NPR.org website for this Monday, Morning Edition. Long segment on addictions, both nicotine (cig centric) and alcohol.

Woman is working me like a Clydesdale before the party today. GTG.
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